I wanted to update you on how my lent challenge is going. So far it going great! I was never really one to be sitting at home and decide I was craving fast food, it just happened when I was out and about and did not prepare ahead of time. Since I knew it would be a struggle, I make sure to pack a small bag with snacks and bottled water. It's been very rewarding holding out this long.
Today was a slightly different story. I cannot say what brought the thought into my mind exactly. Maybe it was just the subtle way the enemy tempts me. But I could not get a sonic diet coke out of my mind. Even though it's not "food", it was one of the things I chose to give up. It was happy hour, and my craving almost had me. I'm not really sure what stopped me, other than not having cash and the charge showing up in view of my accountability partner. I really wanted to persevere because this was not just beneficial for me, but it was a promise I made between myself and God. I don't want something as small as a soda to get in my way. If I can't stop the little things, how can I even begin to stop the big things.
I heard a song today that I have fallen in love with. It says
"Look at all the pretty things
That steal my heart away
I can feel I'm fading
'Cause Lord I love so many things
That keep me from Your face
Come and save me"
It's really a beautiful song by Tenth Avenue North. It speaks to the heart of the matter. If you've read my blog recently, you've seen me mention my Daniel bible study by Beth Moore. We've talked about how we are engulfed in this 'Babylonian' culture. Babylon says "I am, and there is no one besides me." It emphasizes love of self. Oh the things we do to make ourselves happy. I'll be the first to say that I tend to make myself feel better before I think about others. Most of the time the saying is true, you know the one that says "if momma ain't happy, nobody's happy". Yep, that would be me. Grumpy momma bear. If I'm not happy, my husband and children are the first to feel the effects.
That all being said, I want to banish the little things, that keep me from searching after His face. I want my first reaction to trouble to be spirit and not flesh. Also, and since I don't believe in coincidence, I've been told by two people to read a book by the name of "Made to Crave". I can only imagine that it will tie in perfectly with my current spiritual/mental/physical journey. I love the way God works, don't you? Coincidence is just another way God shows us he is in control of it all. All in His timing. Goodnight friends